I hit a bit of a low yesterday. I feel it necessary to share the highs and the lows because post-maternal fitness is not always pounds shed and skinny jeans fitting again and flowers and rainbows. Sometimes it is about actually crying in front of your 6 month old and speaking to her like an adult and warning her about pregnancy and childbirth as she stares at you and breaks out into cute little 6 month old giggles. Ahem, not that I did that yesterday or anything.
What prompted this downward spiral of negativity, you ask? I had a conversation yesterday with an old friend, who has studied physical rehabilitation, anatomy, and physiology intensely to become an athletic trainer. She told me she actually wrote her senior thesis on Diastasis Recti and she swears it is impossible to heal your connective tissue (the linea alba is the connective tissue that pulls your abdominal muscles together and keeps them from separating) once it has been weakened or stretched, therefore the only way to truly “fix” your Diastasis Recti and not live an altered life is via surgery.
Here are some of the thoughts that immediately entered my head as I mourned the loss of my mid-section and its contents:
“Are you f—— kidding me? As if pregnancy and childbirth aren’t hard enough we have to live with the aftermath for the rest of time?”
“Why did this happen to me? Why couldn’t this have happened to someone who doesn’t like to exercise or use their body?”
“Men are so the weaker sex. It’s unbelievable how they get to just coast through life being men. I can’t believe I’m raising a tiny man. How do women seriously not rule the universe already? ”
“F— you ab rollers, ab transformers, ab everything. And to hell with all of your models, especially the ladies, in your commercials”
Also, “lucky me, I’m so glad a Victoria’s Secret catalog arrived in my mailbox yesterday. Are you trying to emotionally stab me, Victoria??”
“How does the medical industry actually consider this surgery cosmetic (a.k.a. not covered by insurance) instead of medically necessary when it causes lower back and hip issues, weakened pelvic floor, urinary incontinence, and possible trauma to your abdomen?? Do you know my friend’s aunt, whose kids are in their twenties, went to the bathroom the other day and her bladder practically fell out?? How was fixing her situation not considered medically necessary??”
I told you it wasn’t pretty. Or PC. It was a low, people. I’m a human.
I reached out to Dawn immediately. She told me to keep it moving. She said that it’s not easy, and it takes a LONG time, but, it is possible to heal your connective tissue. She said you will still have to work at it for the rest of your life and keep up with your transverse abdominal exercises every day, but it is possible, without surgery.
So, here goes Day 10. Keep it moving. Trying not to think about what the next steps are or could be until I see this program through to the end.